Born into the infamous Children of God sect and raised on a diet of boiled rice, Natacha and her 12 siblings were torn away from their parents, beaten on a daily basis, and forced to sing and dance for entertainment in prisons and malls. Natacha never expected to live to adulthood.
At the age of 18 Natacha escaped, but, disowned by her parents and struggling to adapt to the outside world, she was stuck in a kind of limbo - lonely, confused, and unable to feel part of either way of life. Natacha is one of the lucky ones; not all of her family survived the battle to shed the shame and pain of their past.
To date over 40 ex-Children of God members of Natacha’s generation have committed suicide. All Natacha ever wanted was to feel normal, but escaping the cult was only the beginning. Shocking, moving, but ultimately inspiring, this is Natacha’s full story; it is both a personal tale of trauma and recovery, and an exposé of the secret world of abuse hidden behind commune walls.